bye
went back to multiply.adios people.the link is still there:)
I guess in the end, people become the people they promised they would never be. And they do things they swore they would never do.
(via 365thoughts)
There's some things I regret, some words I wish had gone unsaid. Some starts that had some bitter endings. There's some mistakes that I have made, some chances I just threw away. Some roads I never should've taken. Some pages turned, some bridges burnt. But there were lessons learnt.
(via runawaytrain)
Pitzah
supp robyn
exams are over.but it doesnt mean im free.i aint yet though.presentations and make up lessons.gah.but alls done.i dont wanna talk about education for awhile now.
went to sentosa with nadya today.met atikah for awhile to get the picnic mat and cards.went to get the cookies from famous amos too:)
found a spot at pahlawan beach.woah.deja vu.you know.we made a bet on who would complain its hot first and that the loser would treat the winner to whatever.guess what.nadya was under the umbrella all the way.basket.she made pizza.surprisingly,for someone who doesnt like to cook or even knows how to cook,the pizzas not that bad.quite nice in face:)
she painted my thumbs and didnt let me wash them off-.-basket kan.oh and she practically won me in both snap and uno.no i wasn’t giving any chance and no i dont suck-.-sometime around 3,we were talking nicely swee swee and then suddenly theres this chinese guy who jerked and started moving backwards and sideways making weird noises.first thought was that there was something near him or something like a bee or butterfly that prolly scare him.there was nothing so i thought he was prolly those syndrome kids or something but that couldn’t be cos he was with this group of people,mats?not too sure looks like it.you know what?his friends were actually aiming for him.i realised they wanted to pull him into the sea(pin remember what we wanted to do to froze man 3 years back?same thing dude.it happened to him at the bridge.lol)unfortunately,i memorised the weird noises he made.nadya giggled silently and hit me a few times as well.basket seh.
took a few pictures and we exchanged shirts.she wore mine effortlessly whereas i could fit my right arm in but i had troubles fitting in my left one in and also i couldn’t put my arms down properly.i think i got bigger.HAH.packed and walked around vivo for awhile.good time nadya:)
ps:i felt like a tourist whos visiting sentosa.hah.GIRLFIE EH BASKET-.-alright nights people.vacation tmr night.tara:)
I'm Not In Love
sup
wei hao’s eithers gonna get hanged or lifetime imprisonment for drugs.or so says ian the loudmouth motherfucker.shall not elaborate anymore,both wei hao and ian.fuckers.
life’s been taking a different path?so so.50-50.constant emotions but i dont feel right.first paper is tmr at 8 and i still don’t know wheres my seat.to be announced at the venue itself.ah well.2 papers a day for 2 days.so my exams will be done by wednesday.this semester is too fast.i have 2 more years of getting used to schooling during the monsoon season.i have to go to school during the december period.haha i’ve spent 1 more extra year in sec school.
im not sure whether everyones changed or not.ian is till a fat whore.the same as he ever was 6 years ago.nes too.except he changed from wanting to be an anarchist to a hippie that fucks life.keith is still in his own world.baba changed.now he’s getting wilder….according to his small head.you’re cute baba.will always be baba the fat black lamb to us.geroge is in the army and he still hates everything and everyone.i guess phupin is the only disciplined one among one of us.to think he actually tried to run away from singapore all those years ago.
i’m not sure why im prompted to talk about them and not others.hmm.prolly cos keith said he wants to open a restaurant after ns and he wants to name it after us.and yes phupin can be the doorman.
it hit me.in a month’s time,i’ll hit 20.so what have i done thats significant in this life?3 words,I Fucked Up.haha.not big time but reasonable amount of it.now that i think of it,im not sure what i wanna do after ns.yeah yeah work.but as what?no not as a cashier but something promising which im not sure what..for now.yeah i did say i wanna be a lecturer but that would be a secondary job for social handling isn’t my cup of tea.i prolly need time in the workforce to help me attain that much of a confidence.what else?hmm.music.yeah im interested but i have no passion for it.i won’t last.thats a fact i’m forced to accept eons ago and i wonder if my father would help me i did wanna be a musician.will prolly say it’ll ruin my life.he never did support me in anything i do.theres always something wrong in whatever i do.i guess thats why we never got along together.hey im not thaaat bad.my 2nd brother doesnt even talk to him anymore.back in secondary school,i solemnly swore i would be a chemical scientist:(but singapore polytechnic rejected me when i went for the eye checkup.the doctor says this is caused by gene manipulation BUT no one in my immediate family has color deficiency.there was once my father scolded me in front of the doctor when i called out a different number(people with color deficiencies WILL see DIFFERENT numbers,the test is made that way).since he saw a different number,he thought i was wrong.apparently he’s old school.way too old.see what i mean?i didnt even do anything wrong.
i dont mind being an engineer now.i used to think people in engineering courses are fucked up people.well im still having the same thought.females are scarce in this course.in a way i don’t mind,no distractions while studying but im still distracted in class though-.-nice huh.one more thing,the engineering blocks has fucked up buildings whereas the others have nicer and newer ones.okay back to engineering as a career.prolly be an engineer for the saf.make weapons and such for the army.not that bad assuming if theres such a job available for diploma holders.wah seh im not even through 2nd year and i’ve assumed i’ve got the cert.think positive people call it?i’m not gonna get thrown out of school man.
worse come to worse,i’ll prolly sign on.ah well.all these are vague goals.they might probably happen.i still have 2 more years to think about it.not to forget national service too.still got time to think it through.i envy people with realistic goals.i guess all i can do now is just study hard but theres so many pit stops sia basket.a war with procrastination.daaamn.
im in school now.eversince 8am.i had a major migraine yesterday.totally wrecked.wretched head.i still can’t comprehend electronics.physics is suppose to logical.not nonsensically redundant.its soo close to reality that it doesnt make sense.i guess i need to spend more time with this module but the paper is tmr.autocad in the morning first though.thats another module i dont touch when im at home.only mondays.thats the only day in the week that i learn autocad.i’ll prolly read it later.
alright.i’ll prolly have this kinda talk with you soon kay robyn?prolly wednesday when i’m done with the papers.call me crazy people but i just feel like treating this blog as a person.not typing everything here for reference purposes but as a means to relate to someone else.okay.im going to continue studying now.
tara:)
Alias
sup.
thought i’ll blog for awhile before i leave for dinner.so i’ve been here,one fullerton since 8am.studying.no i’m not crazy.i need to catch up with 6 weeks worth of education.been procrastinating way too much.way too much.papers in a few more days.no time to waste.will prolly come here again tmr same time same place.i think some people will be joining me.i made the right choice not to bring a mouse.nice.didn’t touch the laptop till now.
so i did mechanics from 8-12.read a book from 12-2.maths from 2-6.did the whole of tutorial 3.it may not be much but heck,i actually had problems with it.no its not that i couldnt concentrate.its just i had to learn everything on my own since i didn’t listen in class.who does?i’ll prolly do tutorial 4 tmr.as for mechanics.i just understood equilibrium and moments better.need more practice though.i don’t remember practicing physics last year at all man.daanng.
didn’t have lunch for it was raining quite heavily and i got lazy to travel to marina square.eating alone might make me start thinking about stuffs.both wanted and unwanted.had quite a heavy breakfast in the morning though.got lectured by mom when i was in the showers-.-don’t laugh.she said i haven’t been taking good care of myself.since when have i actually done that?she’s prolly taking it out on me cos her other son is in australia.you owe me something brother for my ears hurt enduring mom’s lightning bombards.you could have waited for one more week you fat bastard and we could have gone together-.-
i had 4 large cups of caramel machiatos.i think im addicted to it.ah well.its nice anyway.i spent 28 bucks.so much for saving yanzi:)it doesnt hurt to splurge once in awhile right?….except my once in awhile is everytime.hehe.thats why i dont put money in my bank account for then money will be 6 digit pin number away.i’ve withdrawn the whole amount of it and put it in my safebox which is never safe when yanzi’s rouchnecks are present.taught them parkour so nothing in my home is unreachable.urgh.
my fitness is dropping.really dropping.this is a major problem to me.i need to make time for that.eventhough ns is in 3 years,if this keeps up,i won’t get to go to the best division.father john,keith,would be entering ns next feb.only phupin,nes and i are the remaining of The Johns thats still in school.we’ll prolly go in together if not different timings.ah well.
as i’ve said,im done with brisngr,now i’m reading a mighty fall.its not bad.just like shit-i-forgot-the-title-of-the-skateboard-reality-book-i-read-a-few-years-back,its about life except this time its about rock climbing and its not thick so i’ll prolly finish it in 3 days or something.i’m using a bookmark given to me on my birthday last year.personally hand made by the china-guy-nerd-dude-whom-i-forgot-what’s-his-name-and-i-dunno-why-i-invited-him-to-seoul-garden.haha.its a leaf with some chinese words written on it.both phupin and i stared at in wonder for it looks cool.then he told us the meaning of it.our faces changed from awe to shocking disgusted in merely mili-seconds.on the bookmark it literally said in chinese ‘your education life will never end:)’.we both felt insulted and it was my BIRTHDAY.haha.but i now i guess its fine.i don’t mind studying though.just that it has to be constant for i would be as dumb as _____(insert any name or whatever vocabs you know related to dumb or dumb itself) if theres a break of not studying.haha.
alright.i think i’ll go read a book while waiting for sarah.tara:)
Be With You
hey robyn,
mst is coming.i know shit about electronics.i haven’t even buy the book.thought of photocopying the whole book since some of the classmates did it for thermofluids last sem but it just didn’t happen.lol.mr procrastination here to accompany me.
im half done for engineering maths,mechanics and autocad half-heartedly.dang.i only have 4 papers.itoe won’t be tested thereotically.more towards practical.the papers would be on tuesday and wednesday.thursday would be picnic with nadya and i would be going off on friday night.not sure what im gonna do on friday afternoon.prolly find someone to have lunch with.will be back in a week or something.i still dunno where we’re going.my dad wants to go to malaysia.wth.of all places.ah well.roam the night in kl then with the cousin then.we’re missing one more person.the so called big brother(HAHA.i’m their uncle mind you).
saturday-monday will be spent studying:)luck to me hope it will be spent STUDYING.not killing or book reading time.ah well.nothing much to say for now.actually i have something to say but everytime i get home.i can’t fit it in here.not too sure why though.hmm.gonna go sleep now then.nights:)
ps:i bought a bag-.-
Someone Like You
i’m gonna dedicate this blog to robyn for i want her to read it.except,i have no idea who or where she is.its a long story if im gonna explain to you who robyn is.so just pretend you know aight?when she comes by,i’ll introduce her to the world.
first and foremost,i havent been writing good english.i’m not sure why.my application of it has been degrading ever since…er…sometime back.i was thinking that maybe the gap between the end of o levels and the start of poly,jc or ite should be smaller so that people won’t actually switch off their mind entirely.1 day is enough for me to forget mathemathical facts.what about 6 months?urgh.
saturday was spent with mr masterpiece.everyone else was busy.apparently someone lost his virginity to a paid sex..a disgrace to the johns.its been awhile since i last heard that name.i was called the johnny the boy back then.crazy motherfuckers we were.nes,remember mdm phua?the one i rugby tackled her from behind?i saw her at chinatown when i was in the bus to clarke quay.apparently she’s okay.can still walk.urgh.
saturday morning didn’t go so well robyn:(i don’t wanna talk about it.further assessment…woke up at 7 reached by 8 only to get that kinda results.totally bull’s crap.
talked to lynette today,sunday.been a long time since i last met her.apparently she’s going for a holiday for a month.im not sure im gonna miss her or not.the last time she went away……..of course im not gonna say it.
i lost 50 bucks in the morning btw.got stolen by some shit head.i wont curse anymore for i’ve cursed all morning.gah.
went to west coast park in the evening.read brisingr at the macs.lost track of time till nadya text me.my parents went to the airport to send off my brother.he’s off to australia.i wonder why i didn’t pester him to bring me.i’ve got exams anyway.urgh.
gonna read brisingr in oc’s class tmr.a waste of time really.it teaches you how to present.they should have that module in sem 1 so we won’t have any difficulties presenting.screwed system.
okay imma go sleep now.someones actually counting down.lol.nights people.
ps:resist or submit?le genso,help me.
Way Back Into Love
25 november
okay i’m not sure what to blog.i’ll talk about recent happenings.im sorry if its not descriptive enough.i’ve forgotten about the emotions that were present at that time.we surprised hafiez 3 days short of his birthdate since we wont see him on the saturday.took him to the g-max,reverse bungee.he was shocked for he was afraid of heights,big time.only dzul took the ride with him.i’ve taken it before.thought either shikin,keer or fadzil would take it but none did so this philipine tourist filled the extra spot and off they went.quite short of a ride worthed 30 bucks.the last time i rode it was last year on lynette’s birthday.
after that some of them had dinner.some of us already had it in school.not feeling hungry.shisha after that.we actually htht or it was only me.as if im telling them my life story.except it was just a phase of it.bits of it here and there.
ps:they saw me cry..
